Who Am I?

February 2, 2017

Day 33: Heart Disease And Disease Of The Heart:
"'O Lord,' I prayed, 'have mercy on me. Heal me, for I have sinned against you.'"—Psalm 41:4

Today Anderson focuses on the heart and notes that spiritual sickness can create "legitimate medical symptoms such as stress, high blood pressure, increased cortisol levels and chest pain." He urges us to recognize that "whether the cause of pain is a broken relationship with a loved one, private anger aimed at a coworker, or unmet dreams and desires," the pain we feel isn't "seated in the body; it's in the soul."  The only way to eradicate the pain is by asking God for forgiveness. "It's a simple step in God's treatment plan, but it's a hard one for many people to take."  However, when we do, we can rest assured that "God's forgiveness is complete and his healing starts immediately.  His treatment brings peace and hope for the future."

I can attest to the effectiveness of God's "treatment plan." If you've been reading my blog, then you know that at the beginning of January my heart was deeply troubled and I was not in a good place spiritually. I cried out to God asking Him to show me His true nature. I begged Him to help me read His word with new eyes and to gently guide me back to Him. I wanted reassurance and love not guilt and judgement.  I wanted truth and discernment and he gave me each without hesitation. With a sincerely contrite heart and tears streaming down my face, I asked Him to help me. The only thing I had to do was ask.

It's not to say that I do not have issues to work through still, or that I have it all figured out and know what it means to walk with God.  What I have is a broken spirit and a contrite heart and I know from scripture that God will not reject such sacrifice (Psalm 51:17).

Last night while I was in a yoga class, the instructor asked us to answer a few questions for ourselves. One of the questions was Who Am I? I immediately thought, I am a child of God and the daughter of a King.  I felt a great sense of warmth come over me as I thought those words, and as I left the class, I asked myself what do those words really mean? This morning those words mean that I can walk in this world without fear. God is in control. I can stand before God, a broken soul and know that he loves me and wants to teach me His ways.  I can be wrong and still be right with God as long I remain humble and rely on Him.  I can stumble and fall and know that He will be there to lift me up. All I have to do is ask.

I am a child of God.
I am the daughter of a King.